latley

here i go, i messed up, i fucked everything up once again. i was a shitty shitty person and now im paying for it. i guess i lost a friend today, a very very good friend. who meant alot to me and who i was very close with. i lost it all, now what can i do now? nothing, but mope. if i had a time machine i would, even though thats the cheesiest thing in the world. sometimes i hate myself for doing these things, i guess i didnt think. and now i lost a very important person in my life, forever.

today thisday

was really good, i brought my camera to school and recorded a bunch of neat videos. im exited that tomorow is a half day! eeppp :)
i also really really hope i can see ashley this weekend, and hopefully i shall. i really also want to meet all of her new interesting people there. i think it would be magnificent. also, i patched things up with her so we're beyond good now. everythings ggeewwwwd.


:)

oh hey,

today was good, and the strokes are amazing

i want

a boy like this,


real baadddd

thursdays,

thursdays are usually boring. this one was alright, but not so boring. this morning ashlyn pierced my lip with a bobbypin, it hurt but not that much. then my stomach was feeling a little nauchaus but it eventually felt better. so i put an ear stud in it to keep it from closing up but it kept popping out, and now it's officially closed. but ohh well, anyways today aaron threw blue drink at me. then i threw pickle at him. hahh, so today in english it was kind of difficult because we had to do like 4 total essays within the period. ahh, i only did like 2 out of the four and did a shotty 3rd one, with like 3 seconds to the bell so it was only a couple of lines. it suckkss, but its okay because hopefully this weekend will be gewd. im going to eat some raspberry sherbert now so bye.

officialy,

i am officially moving. honestly i've been thinking about it for a while and i've came to the conclusion that im exited. when i first heard i was moving i had mixed feelings, only because of my friends. i absolutley hate where i am, it's a small drafty town with hardly anything in it at all. even though where im moving isnt that far away it is a different enviornment. so im exited im going to get a new start, and turn over a new leaf. i cant wait to move into our new one story house, and meet all the new people im going to be encountering. i really like change, and im sure this experience will be a good one. i'll make it.

artss

list

to do list :

french project,
read stiff,
algebrah homework,

daily sum up,

woke up exaughsted, tried to drag my tired body out of bed. got ready, drove to ashlyns, drove to school. parked car then walked inside, it smells like school. do you know how school just has a smell? i dont know, it's weird. so after school i walked to the parking lot and found ashlyn and johnny appleseed next to my car. expecting a ride like usual. so then i took them home and then started on my way home. today the drive was longer than i wanted it to be. when i got home i immidealty changed into something comfortable then went downstairs to fill my stomach up with rasberry sherbet and almonds. thats pretty much it so far,

oof,

im kind of in a weird mood. i want to feel better, :/
im going to go take a hot shower, it usually helps a bit.




--i wish i had a real british accent,
is it weird that i usually think in one?

humans

although i am still just in highschool, i have my opinions.
it almost seems like humans wernt meant for this world, all we do is cause distruction.
population = we overpopulate, making everything ours. every piece of land im afraid will eventually go to the suberbs for making homes for people, because obviously we are deffinatley not going to the stop population from decreasing. from here on our numbers are just going to increase and increase, mostly from hospitals and modern medicince. since in the old days people usually died if they got sick so the world wasnt as populated as we are now.
animals = since we are defitley not the only living things on earth it's seemed as though we've claimed many animals for ourselfes. mostly for either eating, keeping as pets, zoos, or clothes. although there is still lots of wildlife, what happends to them when we move into there habitats? i personally love animals and i think we should take a step back and let them live. so many animals are visiously slaughtered for meat and whatknot, i think it's wrong and we should go easy on the meat eating and start treating animals with respect. although im all for vegitarians and vegans and whatknot, im not saying we should stop eating meat all together. but instead of hanging a pig up by it's tendongs and sliting its throat, or simply throwing a brick on a cows head and letting it die in agony, theres just a better way to do things that doesnt make us look like ruthless bastards.
polution = the world is definetly not a garbage can, and for people to just lightly toss away there exaust fumes from cars is just wrong. every action has a reaction and the world is going to drown if we keep doing this. global warming is happening right now, and we need to do something about it. i think people just dont realize that this is the world we live in, and forever will be and they should fucking respect it. not to mention how we discard our trash and toxic waste. we need more bikes, buses, and carpooling. i also think we should use money for creating more hybrid cars, energy saving lightbulbs, and things like that. people need to start using there feet to get from place to place. im not againts car driving or anything, i just think we need to use it in a better way.
the church / religion = churches are a big fucking waste of money and time, do you notice how "the church needs money" all the time? how people constantly giving money to churches? instead of giving money to bullshit churches we should be using that money for better, more constructive things. i personally do not believe in religion, and that the bible is a bunch of bullshit stories made up hundreds and hundreds of years ago to control people. i know i kind of sound like a nazi or something, but it's because im not actually going into it that much. it's actually much more complicated than that, im actually just scratching the surface. dont get me wrong, in not an athiest or anything, im actually not even sure what i believe in 100% i just do not believe in the bible or any religion for that matter.
war = why cant people do better things like plant a tree? i just wish that there were more peace in this world but i highly doubt world peace is coming anytime soon.

the fact that there are so many other issues here proves that this world definelty has it's flaws, but it doesnt mean we cant do anything about it.

at this very moment

i am craving san fransisco, i miss it so. the cold air, the people, the buildings, the water, china town, just everything there is there. although i've only been there twice, im pretty much in love with the city. i am so hoping i could one day live there, if i could afford the apartments that is. its my hopes and dreams, to live in san fransisco. it's what im going to do the second i get out of high school, find a college around or near there. im rethinking about the whole living with ashley in austin, now that i think about it im not so sure. i think i may want to pursue my own future without someone holding my hand by my side. i really think i would be ultimatley happy there and im going to try my hardest and give it my all to do it.

ohh my gash !

this song is basicly my life story, hah
:} i love it sooo,

ca va? jemepelle shelahhh

today was geewwd, honestly i think my "b" days would be perfect if french 8th period wasnt in the mix. although i dont have anything personal about french itself,
(im glad im taking it instead of spanish or german) i just hate learning languages. plus mrs. curtice is so much like that obnoxious pink kitten teacher in harry pottahh number 5. hahhah, but anywayss, we had a bomb threat on friday. everyone was like freaking out and running around with there thumbs up there asses like dumbasses. i went home, not that i thought we would blow up or anything but because everyone else went home. i didnt really want to be alone because when i was in my second period class there was only like 2 other people in there with me, i heard that the school didnt even take roll that day because there was so many people missing. i think students not being there messes up with the taxes or something like that. anyways i called my mother and went hoomee. it was a nice intervention, an early weekend for me. and like 400 other people at that school,

i heart zach

is it just me, or is zach braff one of the best/amazing/fantastic/ person on this planet? im pretty much in love with him, i would deffinetly drink his bath water
for suuurreeee

question?

who do you run to talk to about something thats bothering you, when your best friend is that something? latley i've been relying on my self, and it sucks.
i feel distressed.

i & w

<3 iron and wine is genious!!!!

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